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kαıηє {нคяd тσ Ъε รσƒт, тσugн тσ Ъε тεหdεя} ([personal profile] apassingafternoon) wrote2015-04-17 09:08 pm

Bottle It Up

Kaine didn't see Nariko after she returned to the palace. There would have been something oddly poignant about sharing the entire experience, speaking a bit frankly about it, but Kaine wanted to hold it to herself for a little while longer. In the end that was for the best. Sekht and Fyra's wedding was held in the morning and they all stood for it and then danced for it. Everything should have been goddamn peachy. There was no more pressure or tension in her general atmosphere, just the understandable, acceptable level of regret and acceptance. Kaine could deal with that.

What she couldn't fucking deal with was Nariko. Oh, sure, she smiled and clapped and when Sekht playfully asked her for a dance but every warning sign in the book was on full display. Her smile was hollow, her polite manner far too restrained. The natural ease that she'd found with Roland was nowhere to be found, in fact she seemed far too content with pretending he wasn't even anywhere near her. And maybe the obnoxious sleeves of her shirt - it was fucking insane that anyone could be unaffected by this heat - hid her left hand but Kaine saw the black chord around her neck and in that voiceless, deep way she had always possessed when it came to Nariko, Kaine knew that the other woman's wedding ring was hiding underneath her clothes.

This was some bullshit and Kaine, free of her nervousness and caution, was real fucking tired of pussyfooting around here.

So the wedding party continued but Kaine wasn't around to enjoy the latter half of it. She had dragged Nariko off and then returned alone.

Livid didn't begin to describe how she felt. But she made her way over to Bert anyway, jaw clenched tight and her arms folded even tighter.

"I need you to do something for me."
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-04-18 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
Bert had been enjoying himself a fair amount, learning dance moves off some rather genial locals and teaching some of Gilead's dances in return. When he saw Kaine heading towards him, he was busily gyrating in Alain's direction, laughing and flushed. His laughter died on his lips, though, when he saw her expression, and although he smiled and joked as he excused himself from the little group he'd gathered around him, his smile was gone as soon as he came to meet her.

"You'll have to be more specific," he said, with a little shrug. "What is it?"
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-04-18 02:48 am (UTC)(link)
He looked down at the money, then up to her again. "And the reason I'm taking this, and not you, is...?" It wasn't meant to be a criticism, just genuine lack of understanding. "I hope you're not expecting me to give her an insight into the Roland situation. I had to hear about it from Alain, and you can be damned sure Roland didn't tell him out loud." He raked one hand back through his sweaty hair, frowning. "I'm not saying I won't do it. I'm just saying... me? Really? Because as I recall, most of the last few times I've opened my mouth it's only been to switch feet."
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-04-18 04:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"Your obsession with my hair can't be healthy," Bert commented lightly, but he nodded, giving her a smile as reassuring as he could muster. "I'll take care of it. Just don't be surprised if I panic and start making dumb jokes about what an ass Roland is." Shrugging, he touched her arm briefly and raised an eyebrow. "If you talk to Roland, don't make those jokes. Man has no sense of humour."
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-04-18 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
He quirked an eyebrow. "Now there's an incentive," he murmured, and kissed her back, tracing his thumb over the line of her jaw. "Anyroad, tell me if he says anything too stupid. I'll black his eye for you. Fuck knows he needs it sometimes." He was mostly joking. Mostly.

Straightening up, he pushed his hair back again, nodding to her. "Kitten. Nariko. Get her to smile. I'm on it." Another brief kiss, and he headed off into the crowd, darting through the press of dancers.

He was as good as his word, too. Nor did he waste any time; it was maybe half an hour at most before he knocked on Nariko's door, trying to balance a little ginger cat in one arm and stop it from batting at his hair.
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[personal profile] gunslingerqueen 2015-04-18 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
Kaine was more than sure Roland would say something obnoxious, but she was prepared and that had to count for something. They both left at the same time, him in one direction and Kaine in another. Nariko remained exactly as she was despite Bert's knocking sometime later. From the other side Nariko stared at the wooden door and then resolved herself to answer the damn thing. Her eyes were red rimmed but her expression was even, though she raised a brow at the cat and who held it.

"I feel like this is some inside joke that I'm not aware of." The only other person whose presence would make even less sense was Roland himself. "And why do you have a cat?" And why was it adorable and tiny? She tilted her head a bit, a vague little habit that put her new hairstyle on display. Most all of that ankle-length hair was now chopped off, it barely crossed the line of her shoulders and still appeared a bit uneven. She was talented with a gun, a sewing needle, and drinks, but not scissors.
Edited 2015-04-19 01:00 (UTC)
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[personal profile] toweredingly 2015-04-19 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Roland was sitting at the edge of the dancefloor, alone. He'd danced a few turns, for appearance's sake more than anything else, but being in the mood he was in, he wasn't exactly celebrating. Susan was nowhere to be seen, which was a small blessing for Kaine, since she would certainly have stepped in if she'd been there. Instead, Roland just looked up, shrugged one shoulder, and tossed back the rest of his drink.

"Then talk," he said simply. "I'm listening."
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-04-19 05:52 pm (UTC)(link)
"She's a present," Bert said gravely, holding the cat out. It mewed plaintively, and he raised one eyebrow at it, then looked back up at Nariko. "Kaine said you might need something to cheer you up, and I've been sent as an emissary. I think it's because if you throw things at me, I can dodge," he added cheekily, flashing her a grin, then shook his head. "I'm also here to offer my services as someone to badmouth Roland to. As someone else who loves him and knows just what a bedamned ass he is."
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[personal profile] gunslingerqueen 2015-04-19 09:52 pm (UTC)(link)
A present that greatly preferred Bert, apparently. Nariko stared at the little ball of fluff but ultimately couldn't help herself. She took it from him and let it sit awkwardly on her chest while her fingers petted just behind its little ears. Upset or not she could feel herself relaxing. She could be mad at Roland, at herself, at her parents, but never something so cute and innocent. It was some weird mental trigger.

"It's because she knows that trying to force me to do anything doesn't work. She's making it all into something it doesn't need to be and I have a right to be upset about it." But that was also between herself and Kaine, there was no pulling Bert into it so she let he topic go and stepped back to let him in..

"More importantly, what is there to badmouth? He's being himself and I was the idiot. A lot of this is my fault." Which, of course, was what had infuriated Kaine so much. "Now the four of you are back together." Nariko shrugged but for such a short gesture it seemed as depressed as she felt. She kept playing with the kitten, though, letting it gnaw on her fingers. "If that makes you all happy then I don't think it's the world ending affair Kaine does."
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[personal profile] toweredingly 2015-04-20 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
"I wouldn't try to stop you," Roland replied flatly. Flatly, but with a certain dangerous undercurrent of anger which was almost unnoticeable. "I've forced us back together once. If ka wants us apart, well, I guess it'll happen." It was clear, and understandably so, that he was unhappy with that. It was equally clear that he meant it. He wasn't about to step in now. Part of him, endlessly weary even at his young age, said that you could only follow someone, not force them to follow you. Nor, if he was honest, did he altogether want any of them to. You will lose all that you love...

"When it comes down to the moment," he said after a little while, "I swear to you, I will not force her to anything she doesn't want to. And nor will you. What comes after that..." He shrugged. "There'll be water if God wills it."
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-04-20 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)
"Oh, come now." Bert wagged his finger, shaking his head. "There's always something to badmouth about Roland. Here, I'll start. He's grumpy and moody and trying to get him to feel human emotion is like trying to make a brick wall smile. Oh, and he never washes behind his ears." Nudging the door closed behind him as he stepped in, he slung an arm companionably around her shoulders. "I can probably think of some more things to complain about if you let me. You should probably shut me up."
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[personal profile] gunslingerqueen 2015-04-20 11:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Surely the universe was on its rightful axis if Bert could still coax the tiniest of smiles out of her, even if she did bite the inside of her cheek to drown it. The sudden closeness was ... Odd, but if he wasn't overdoing himself then Nariko couldn't complain. Their newest addition, who she had now deemed as 'Sonia', crawled up her shoulder and meowed at Bert.

"I might not have known about the ear thing. Does being irritated at trying to even vaguely talk to him fall under the human emotion umbrella?" That's her hesitant contribution. "Or feeling like a complete failure for wanting to ask for help or at least maybe not deal with multiple assholes by yourself? Or telling him to his face that something is a bad idea and one person's life isn't worth hundreds so why ignore that to begin with?"

Okay, there was all of that, too.
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-04-21 12:05 pm (UTC)(link)
"God and the Man Jesus, tell me about it!" Bert grinned, although there was a certain brittleness to his cheerful tone. "Last time we had to have that conversation with him, I had to punch him right in the face to get him to listen. Not that I'm saying it wasn't satisfying, kennit?" He laughed, reaching over to scratch the kitten between the ears. "And that thing he does, where he gives you that look and you feel six inches tall? I'll tell you a secret, Nariko, learnt through twenty years of suffering; half the time when he does that, it's only because he has no idea what he's doing and he's too proud to say so."
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[personal profile] gunslingerqueen 2015-04-21 02:10 pm (UTC)(link)
"I think a lot of things can be filed under that." Because for as hardheaded as Roland could be, he wasn't going to have all the answers but when you were raised to lead everyone, when that felt most natural ... It was difficult to let go of that. Nariko understood that quite well.

"Bert," Sonia purred while attempting to sit on Nariko while still maintaining Bert's attention. That this cat was immediately reminding her of Kaine now was just eerie. "Why are you doing this?" Because of Kaine, because of Roland in some odd way, or maybe because he was just bored. Those were the only explanations she could come up with.
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-04-21 03:51 pm (UTC)(link)
"Depends. You want the easy answer or the true one?" Bert pulled a face, petting Sonia's ears. "The kitten was definitely Kaine's idea, if that's what you're asking. She gave me the money for it and everything."
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[personal profile] gunslingerqueen 2015-04-21 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
"Of course it was her idea, no one else knows my weakness for small animals that are ultimately dependent on me. That, and she needed some way to apologize without actually saying the words." And, of course, she chose Bert instead of Alain, Bert instead of Fyra or even Sekht. There was a reason for that, too, because Kaine rarely did anything without an explanation. Whether it made sense or not was usually the grand question.

"In fact, I'm sure she promised you something in exchange, but even so that isn't really enough to get you here is it?"
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[personal profile] toweredingly 2015-04-21 05:08 pm (UTC)(link)
The trouble was that injecting poison into conversation with Roland was that the more toxic you were, the more stonily implacable he tended to become. This was no exception. His face hardened a little, his voice cool and flat. "You're right. You don't." He got to his feet, looking down at her. "But it is my business. Not just as concerns Cuthbert. Nariko is part of my ka-tet. She's my wife. And until she - not you, she - tells me otherwise, that's how it's going to stay. What happens at the end of this will happen. You can curse me for it all you want, tell me it's not ka, but until it happens, you don't know what it is." He reached out, gripping her shoulder, his blue eyes boring into her. "As for what's separating us, you tell me this: if it came to a choice between Nariko and Cuthbert, would you find it so easy?"
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-04-21 05:19 pm (UTC)(link)
"I could have guessed it," Bert said brightly, and shook his head, scraping his hands back through his hair. His smile faded. "Look. Truth be told, I've got a problem with you and Susan both. Both of you love him, and you keep hurting him, and I know neither of you ever wanted to, but fuck. But here's the thing... I love him too. I know what a fucking ass he is, and how much it hurts to care about him, and if you tell him I breathed one word of this, I am taking the kitten back." It was an attempt at humour, but it fell rather flat. Sighing, he flopped back against the doorframe, looking her up and down. "Point is, you're hurting him. He's hurting you. Susan's hurting both of you, and she's getting hurt back. And Kaine's grumpy and Alain's getting a headache, and for fuck's sake, all this over Roland's existence?"

He pulled a face, looking away. "Wish I could say I didn't understand it."
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[personal profile] gunslingerqueen 2015-04-21 05:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Since he didn't have his arm around her anymore Nariko sat on the end of her bed, ignoring Sonia's disdainful whining.

"I know all of that," Not in an 'I know that so why are you wasting time repeating it' manner, it was more along the lines of 'I know that very well and you probably needed to say it to me'. "I thought that stepping out of it might help you as much as it would him. Maybe it's easier to fix whatever is between you and Roland if there isn't some random woman in the way, I don't know. Relationships are weird. Though, for the record, Susan isn't doing anything to me. It's not really anyone's fault that he and I don't fit together, that I can't get him to do what it is you need him to."

Fuck's sake, she wanted to cry again. "And if that was an answer it was a strange one."

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