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Alain was having none of their shit and that was just by the mere virtue of being completely and utterly out of it. Kaine had thought it would be alright to use an extra drop or two but ... Well, it was that or his own exhaustion that kept him out of it. For as much as Kaine wanted to lie around and ignore everyone, tend to her house and hardly the people inside of it Nariko had a point. They were to rest for a week before moving on. The quicker they dealt with the out of the way errands the sooner she could sit in her room for as long as Nariko would allow before inevitably dragging her back out.
Which explained why they were on the road to The Village, or Arpagio as it was now known. The name changed was ridiculous (Aelious must have somehow gotten his way) but Kaine accepted it with a shrug. The journey was a boring one for her, she stuck to Nariko's side a bit tighter, more anxiously than usual but otherwise kept her words to a minimum. She didn't feel like talking, didn't even feel like going anywhere near town and the last thing she wanted was to even heart Cuthbert's voice, which she had already spent the morning blocking out. And yet he somehow felt well enough to come along. Fantastic.
The doors pushed open in their rhythmic fashion and her first question of the day was directed at Roland even though she didn't bother with looking over at him.
"What are we here for again?" They had barely taken two steps in and she was already quite tired of everything, and it showed in her voice, and the fold of her arms over her stomach. If her oversized sweater and skinny jeans didn't make that just as clear then nothing else would.
Which explained why they were on the road to The Village, or Arpagio as it was now known. The name changed was ridiculous (Aelious must have somehow gotten his way) but Kaine accepted it with a shrug. The journey was a boring one for her, she stuck to Nariko's side a bit tighter, more anxiously than usual but otherwise kept her words to a minimum. She didn't feel like talking, didn't even feel like going anywhere near town and the last thing she wanted was to even heart Cuthbert's voice, which she had already spent the morning blocking out. And yet he somehow felt well enough to come along. Fantastic.
The doors pushed open in their rhythmic fashion and her first question of the day was directed at Roland even though she didn't bother with looking over at him.
"What are we here for again?" They had barely taken two steps in and she was already quite tired of everything, and it showed in her voice, and the fold of her arms over her stomach. If her oversized sweater and skinny jeans didn't make that just as clear then nothing else would.
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Date: 2015-03-09 03:25 am (UTC)Kaine managed to get the entire list of groceries to Mr. Alamone, an elderly fellow who looked at them all quite doubtfully.
"No." But she had to be. She had a job to do so even if she wasn't alright it didn't change a single thing. The quicker they finished the quicker they could go back home and she could sleep for the next eighty-five years, away from all men and stupid feelings and embarrassing, public spectacles.
Nariko muttered, speaking only to Roland, and hopefully far off enough from Bert. "When did we have children, Roland? Because this feels an awful lot like having children." Granted they were children whose problems might be more easily solved if they stopped being idiots and kissed so ... Maybe that wasn't the best analogy. Oh well. Nariko pushed her hair out of her face, "I think once we've gotten our groceries we should have lunch near the bridge, outside. She'll feel better with some space."
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Date: 2015-03-09 03:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-03-09 03:51 am (UTC)Kaine finally looked over at them. "Is this enough?" Considering that she had apparently gotten enough for ten people, not five, Nariko felt safe in replying for them all.
"More than enough. Why don't you go visit the sheep?" She looked over at Bert and added, "You and Bert. Unless someone actually wants to buy new clothes? We don't need four people to carry everything and get lunch."
She was not a very subtle mother, never had been! Maybe if they had a few minutes to themselves they could manage to be vaguely amicable. And Nariko could get in at least a half-decent kiss with her husband without feeling terrible about it. A sort of trade off for avoiding the nap.
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Date: 2015-03-09 11:41 am (UTC)Roland looked him up and down, then shrugged one shoulder. There was a pain in the draw of his jaw and the set of his mouth, but it was very well-hidden. "There are clothes back at the house that will fit you well enough to last while those are washing. As I believe I told you this morning."
"Well, then." Putting down the shirt he was looking at, Cuthbert smiled with a sharp kind of brightness, and said sardonically, "If Mama and Papa are in agreement, what can I do but obey? Don't do anything I wouldn't do," he added to Roland with a wag of his finger, heading over to Kaine.
He really did have very good hearing.
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Date: 2015-03-09 01:54 pm (UTC)Kaine looked over her shoulder as Bert neared and, for a moment, looked ready to say something. Whatever it might have been was pushed off with a little sigh, and she motioned to the little spot just across the bridge. The kids had been freed of their lessons and we're playing near the grazing animals. To the left there was a tree with generous shade and that was what she motioned towards.
"I know it wasn't entirely for me, but thank you." It wasn't what was really on her mind but it would do for now.
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Date: 2015-03-09 05:21 pm (UTC)It sounded disingenuous - was disingenuous - but he hadn't thought it would have hurt her so deeply. It wasn't the first time he'd misjudged, but he had a tendency to forget just how sharp his tongue could cut. Besides, he'd grown used to Jamie, Alain, and Roland - people whose emotions he could read as easily as his own, sometimes easier. She was different. And although he'd be lying if he'd said he hadn't meant to hurt her, in the harsh light of day he felt like an absolute ass.
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Date: 2015-03-09 06:13 pm (UTC)But that doesn't make it lying. "It's fine. I'm not very good at any of this. I should have just left you alone this whole time." Because that was always what he wanted, even back in Gilead. He didn't want anyone to see him be upset, didn't want to be held or looked after, but Kaine had never listened. She kept pushing at him so was it any real surprise that she had come off as desperate? "So, I'm sorry for being such a pain in the ass." Kaine tried to smile, but it felt wobbly and uncertain. "But soon you'll go back home, and everything will work itself out. Hopefully, anyway."
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Date: 2015-03-09 10:37 pm (UTC)Looking up at the sky, awkward with the need to say things so vulnerable and teenaged, he cleared his throat a couple of times. "It," he started, then pulled a face, scraped his hair back off his face, and started again. "I did really believe it. But only because I was pissy and I wanted to be left alone. Or at least for it to be Ro' or Al. Someone I could lay out flat and not feel like shit for doing it." Pinching the bridge of his nose, he looked down at her. "You're just about the only person around here at the moment who I don't want to kick in the kneecaps. Ro's an ass, Al's an idiot, Nariko took our dinh, and I'm a total dumbfuck who spoils everything he touches. And it doesn't sound like you're planning on coming back with us, and I don't blame you, but fuck, if you left, I'd have to miss you. And I'm sick of missing people."
He pulled a face, looking away again. "Look, what I'm trying to say is I cry your pardon. It wasn't a lie, but it wasn't true either. I like you. I like having you around. Plus, you saved my life and Al's, and that's not nothing." With another grimace, he added quickly, "Don't tell anyone I've got feelings. Got a reputation to maintain."
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Date: 2015-03-09 10:56 pm (UTC)"It's okay, I really forgive you. Or whatever the proper response to that phrase is supposed to be." Her smile appeared briefly even though she hadn't been trying to joke, it just felt as if there was enough room in her for that, now.
"... I should have asked them to get me the noodles." Because she wasn't touching the 'not going back' topic specifically because Bert wouldn't poke it, either, and that was probably for the best.
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Date: 2015-03-10 12:06 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-03-10 12:20 am (UTC)There was an especially upset looking Wrangler (which was truly saying something as most all of them looked angrily) being manhandled up into the air, a crate attached to it's sturdy midsection as it attempted to smack into the mountain a ways off from them. There was a very brave, older woman cursing at it. Most everyone observed this with awareness, but no one screamed or ran off, they relaxed when the Wrangler passed but appeared ready to bolt if something went wrong.
"Alright, maybe it's a little different." But mostly just because of the insane, ornery beasts that they all had to deal with. "And you and Alain managed to avoid a terrifying, cannibal blood pact, so that was fun. Even if you didn't know about it."
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Date: 2015-03-10 12:38 am (UTC)Shaking off the thought as best he could, he looked over to Kaine again. "So, about this cannibal blood pact," he said, lightly. "Any chance I can persuade Alain to go back and take it? Because you have to admit, the look on his face would be priceless."
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Date: 2015-03-10 01:12 am (UTC)"We can, however, tell him what he missed, that might be half as priceless?" At least she was willing to sort of play along here! "Leaving you both there scared the shit out of me. The last time I let them near anyone I cared about, my grandma died."
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Date: 2015-03-10 07:06 pm (UTC)"So!" He clapped his hands together, grinning. "Cannibals. Giant birds. Nariko's ex-lovers. Anything else we should be on the lookout for, oh all-knowing guide?"
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Date: 2015-03-10 07:51 pm (UTC)Despite the smile on her face, Kaine wasn't joking. Before they could get too far Kaine tilted her head up and then looked over. No one had been joking about lunch. There were various meal buns, three styrofoam bowls that Kaine knew very well, and equally familiar glass blows piled with ice cream.
"Oh my god," Kaine's eyes widened and if she didn't think to close her mouth soon she was likely to begin drooling. "It's all so beautiful!"
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Date: 2015-03-11 12:09 am (UTC)Roland shrugged expressively, handing over one of the buns. "I'm trusting Nariko on this," he informed Bert, and raised one eyebrow.
Bert laughed. What the joke was, even he might have struggled to articulate, wrapped up as it was in all the threads of past associations and tone and expression, but something about the odd inflection of Roland's voice and the resigned little twitch of that hard mouth just... tickled him. So he laughed, and a little of that shadow between them melted away as he took the bun. "So long as there's enough of it," he decided out loud. "I'm starving."
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Date: 2015-03-11 12:43 am (UTC)Kaine herself heard nothing at all. She waited, all but vibrating in place, anxious for the very instant Nariko would set everything down. That happened, of course, and two of the bowls went to Kaine, one quickly snatched and put off to the side farthest away from everyone else. The other had its lid ripped off viciously, and Nariko was smart enough to leave the fork on the ground lest she draw back a stump of an arm. The steam soup that held numerous, rich, brown noodles was devoured near instantly. Kaine only paused to sip at the heavy, almost gravy-like broth, her moan far too indulgent and even dark to sound entirely innocent to anyone who didn't know her well.
And Nariko supposed that, when it came to her friends appetite, neither Roland or Cuthbert knew how utterly obsessed Kaine was with her meals. Picking up the fork Kaine twirled up a large bundle of the dark pasta, gathering bits of meat and vegetables along the way, and shoved all of it into her mouth with the grace of a ravenous, angry yak. Her teeth even clicked before she got to chewing, cheeks puffed out but an expression of pure, joyous bliss was in her eyes.
Nariko observed it all very evenly.
"So," She looked at Cuthbert. "The buns have meat and vegetables, and they're aptly called Lunch Buns. They're very inventive with names around here." They weren't, but when you had to deal with multiple people from multiple words maybe simplicity was the best policy. "What Kaine is eating? Those are Seaweed noodles, hers are meat, the other one - assuming any of us gets to it before her - has sea food. There's also ice-cream, which is cold, delicious, and tastes like strawberries. And also like a mang-o, that's the orange one, and it's mine so try not to eat it all, please."
Meanwhile, Kaine gulped down the last little morsel of broth and then licked the bowl for good measure before she tossed it away.
"Oh man! That! That is what being home feels like!"
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Date: 2015-03-13 03:08 am (UTC)It was, he had to admit, very good. And he was, he was just realising, very hungry. It wasn't quite enough to dull that unfortunately-awoken pain of loss, but it was a start. With his mouth still half-full, he reached out at random, picking up one of the glass bowls. He swallowed, licked his fingers, and took a mouthful of ice-cream.
His eyes actually bulged a little, and when he took another spoonful, it was with the experimental air of someone who can't quite believe he didn't make it up the first time. "Holy shit," he said after a moment, and held the bowl out to Roland. "Ro'. Ro', you have to try this. It's so sweet." Which was the rather more coherent version of the clamouring sweetsweetsweet echoing around his skull. He'd never tasted anything with that kind of sweetness to it.
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Date: 2015-03-13 03:46 am (UTC)Both girls smiled at Bert's revelation, as well as his desire to share it with Roland. Nariko left them to it for some extra moments, but she couldn't avoid the question any longer.
"So, I imagine all of that went about the only way it could," Farson moving in right after the Claude debacle. Whether it was a planned affair, or they saw an opportunity hardly mattered to Nariko. "But why did you come back a mess? And how for that matter?"
Kaine, who had dreaded this topic all day, was at least moderately prepared to handle it now. She wiped her mouth with the back of her arm (or would have, if Nariko hadn't stopped her and offered a napkin) and then explained as quickly as possible. "Because I saw the black scrawl on Bert and Alain, it disappeared after I did that," Here she made a twirling motion with her finger. This was somehow meant to explain the howling mode of fighting that she had put to use.
"But without your song I wasn't nearly as strong. You know it took me five minutes to get through three hundred? I counted, and it was bullshit. My body gave out and I died again. Before, I told Alain to take Bert and Jamie and run if it came to that but he brought us here with Maggie's book. At least, that's what I'm assuming what happened. I've only ever felt that weird electricity once before and it was back when you ..." Kaine trailed off, and shook her head. "For a second I thought I actually died for good, but then we woke up in Mystic and everyone was angry at each other, Elder Johnson tried to eat Bert, and Trish tried to have sex with Alain. Because she's a disgusting and horrible bitch."
And that's what happened according to Kaine.
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Date: 2015-03-13 04:11 am (UTC)"I took command over Gilead after you left," Bert said after a moment, glancing between Roland and Nariko. "I wasn't the best at it. But we got some semblance of a wall up, and charges laid in the lower town where we figured they would pass. Women, children, the sick and elderly... we sent them down into the crypts, and I gave Jared a map I made up as best I could. There's a way out down under there, if they could find it. So far as I saw it, our job was to win them time." Wetting his lips, he took another spoonful of ice cream, as if its sweetness could damp out the bitterness of what he was saying. "Farson came from the west. We had no reports of his troops to the south or east. I gave our civilians instructions to move by night and at the fastest pace they could, and set them up with the last of our supplies." His eyes were on Roland alone now, partly because it was Roland he was really reporting to, and partly out of a barely-veiled need to be told he'd done the right thing. All he got was a barely-perceptible nod, but that was enough.
He took a deep breath. "We set up a front line. Everyone with a weapon to carry, gunslingers on the high wall. We were in pretty poor shape after Claude. I had a broken leg and ribs, and I wasn't the worst off. Jared had to go down to the crypts, because his fingers were smashed up so bad the poor bastard could hardly hold a gun." He grimaced, and closed his eyes for a moment. "Jamie took a shell to the head about five minutes after the first volley. Died quick, if not clean. I took a bolt in the belly, that's when Kaine did... whatever she did. Only it didn't look like it was lasting, and I didn't want to watch her die out there fighting someone else's war." Opening his eyes, he looked between Nariko and Roland as if daring either of them to comment. He knew it had been stupid, that look said; knew, and didn't give a flying fuck about it. "Apparently Al didn't mean to come with us. He said he wanted someone to give you a report. I think he was just too chickenshit to deal with being the last one left. Either way, he sent us out here, and I guess he got pulled along. Serves him right. Trying to hog all the fun."
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Date: 2015-03-13 04:54 am (UTC)"None of them wanted to listen to Bert, of course, so I just pantomimed what I overheard. I didn't think any of them would go along with it but they did. I put Yonah with Eunyce and sent them off. Ignis and Agni lead the Guardians. None of the rest would go back to Farim without you, or at least Roland. Connor and Agni were …" Kaine paused here and very obviously considered her next words. " … I didn't feel so bad about 'accidentally' putting the latter out of his misery. I don't think it's any big secret that I wasn't very fond of Roland until he did what he did, and then more so last night, but even if that hadn't been the case I wouldn't have agreed with what they said. To me it didn't really matter if they were kidding or not."
Nariko raised a brow, "Show me later." But her tone had a nasty bit of understanding, as if seeing in whatever way she could would only confirm a thing or two. Kaine, knowing that to be the ultimate truth, shrugged as if resigned to her friends need for that confirmation.
"How long has it been for you two?" Now was an opportune subject change. Kaine opened her second bowl while she asked, and Nariko leaned into Roland without realizing, a wordless request for touch.
"Three full days." Meaning there wouldn't have ever been any hope. Farson came directly after Roland had gone. Even if they'd been dropped in the Valley they wouldn't have been able to make it. That there was really nothing to have been done about it stung more than hearing what happened. "So Alain not only used a book of spells that's been passed down through one bloodline since the literal days of Arthur Eld and didn't die or become physically misshapen for it, but was actively saved by something that's said to act outside of ka." Kaine nodded, though she had no idea who the hell Gan was. "And by the time we've made it back, it'll have been two weeks." Another nod from Kaine who was eating at a far more normal speed. "Well, I suppose it's an uncomfortably fitting punishment."
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Date: 2015-03-18 10:09 pm (UTC)"If they..." Bert started, around a mouthful of ice cream, then stopped to swallow, cleared his throat, and tried again. "If they did, they won't be easy to gather up. It's going to be like trying to gather up pieces of wood broken on an anvil. The civilians won't be brought to fight, nor should they be. The gunslingers came out there to die." He said it with a brittle equanimity, even a slight smile, which only made it more obvious how hollow the look in his eyes was. "The war's over. We lost."
"We knew it was coming." Roland nodded, just a little, and reached out his free hand. To his immense relief, Cuthbert took it, and held tight for a moment before letting go. It was something, at least, bridging the gap between them. "We're still alive. We still have work to do." Sitting back on his heels, he looked at Nariko. "Starting, I'd guess, with figuring out what Alain's gotten himself into."
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Date: 2015-03-18 11:22 pm (UTC)"Because books obviously talk." Kaine's tone was utterly deadpan, but Nariko only shrugged while debating her food.
"This one does. Not very often, thankfully, but how else do you think I came up with that plan? It's not as if I just opened the thing and knew how to deal with Claude, or that I immediately knew which spells to use when it came time to dealing with Farson or my mother. I spoke my goals, it gave me a logical plan of attack."
Kaine glanced over at Bert while Nariko gave up on eating anymore. The youngest of their party rolled her eyes, "… You know, a talking book is hardly the weirdest part of it all so maybe it isn't that bad."
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Date: 2015-03-19 12:43 am (UTC)Roland glared at him, but Bert barely flinched. "Look, Ro', someone had to ask. I'm no keener to see it in Marten's hands than you."
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Date: 2015-03-19 01:09 am (UTC)"It came with you two," Kaine said, and she was suddenly very intent on not looking at Cuthbert or Nariko. "It was in his room first, but then it was in the kitchen this morning so I put it in the basement. That's the only part of the house that has any kind of seal, so we figured it made the most sense. I didn't see it anywhere else before we left so there isn't any reason to think it isn't still there."
"And when we get back I'll take it myself. If I can't find out why it did what it did then at least I know how to keep it away from everyone else. So there you go." Without another word Nariko stood up, brushed at the grass on her clothes and turned around to walk back towards town.
"Dammit ..." Kaine looked as lost as she felt but she stopped herself from getting up and going after her. "... Once we're done here we can deal with the book. Everything else that needs figuring out won't see any answers until we get to the castle. For all we know that crazy bitch will have some kind of answer for all of this, assuming she can speak this time."
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