apassingafternoon: (you're screaming with a smile)
kαıηє {нคяd тσ Ъε รσƒт, тσugн тσ Ъε тεหdεя} ([personal profile] apassingafternoon) wrote2015-03-07 08:49 pm

Fu re ru

Alain was having none of their shit and that was just by the mere virtue of being completely and utterly out of it. Kaine had thought it would be alright to use an extra drop or two but ... Well, it was that or his own exhaustion that kept him out of it. For as much as Kaine wanted to lie around and ignore everyone, tend to her house and hardly the people inside of it Nariko had a point. They were to rest for a week before moving on. The quicker they dealt with the out of the way errands the sooner she could sit in her room for as long as Nariko would allow before inevitably dragging her back out.

Which explained why they were on the road to The Village, or Arpagio as it was now known. The name changed was ridiculous (Aelious must have somehow gotten his way) but Kaine accepted it with a shrug. The journey was a boring one for her, she stuck to Nariko's side a bit tighter, more anxiously than usual but otherwise kept her words to a minimum. She didn't feel like talking, didn't even feel like going anywhere near town and the last thing she wanted was to even heart Cuthbert's voice, which she had already spent the morning blocking out. And yet he somehow felt well enough to come along. Fantastic.

The doors pushed open in their rhythmic fashion and her first question of the day was directed at Roland even though she didn't bother with looking over at him.

"What are we here for again?" They had barely taken two steps in and she was already quite tired of everything, and it showed in her voice, and the fold of her arms over her stomach. If her oversized sweater and skinny jeans didn't make that just as clear then nothing else would.
askthelookout: (Firelit evening)

[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-03-10 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
"We've dealt with worse," Bert said carelessly, waving a hand. "Skin-men, demons, wizards... Roland with a headache..." But underneath that irreverence there was a current of something that was almost apology, and almost gratitude. It was always rather reassuring to know that people worried about you, even if you hated it and wished they wouldn't.

"So!" He clapped his hands together, grinning. "Cannibals. Giant birds. Nariko's ex-lovers. Anything else we should be on the lookout for, oh all-knowing guide?"
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-03-11 12:09 am (UTC)(link)
Cuthbert, meanwhile, was looking at the food extremely askance. "Is any of this food? Those, I guess." Pointing at the buns. "Ro'? What the hell's all this?" Apparently, on this occasion, he was just curious enough for it to outweigh his lingering resentment.

Roland shrugged expressively, handing over one of the buns. "I'm trusting Nariko on this," he informed Bert, and raised one eyebrow.

Bert laughed. What the joke was, even he might have struggled to articulate, wrapped up as it was in all the threads of past associations and tone and expression, but something about the odd inflection of Roland's voice and the resigned little twitch of that hard mouth just... tickled him. So he laughed, and a little of that shadow between them melted away as he took the bun. "So long as there's enough of it," he decided out loud. "I'm starving."
askthelookout: (A dangerous smile)

[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-03-13 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
He would never, not in a thousand years, have admitted how that made him ache. It wasn't Kaine's fault, and she had every right to be glad at being back, but her declaration about home only kicked Cuthbert in the gut, stronger than ever, with the realisation that he was never going to be home again. His eyebrows drawing together for a moment, he hid his feelings fairly efficiently by wolfing down half the bun at once.

It was, he had to admit, very good. And he was, he was just realising, very hungry. It wasn't quite enough to dull that unfortunately-awoken pain of loss, but it was a start. With his mouth still half-full, he reached out at random, picking up one of the glass bowls. He swallowed, licked his fingers, and took a mouthful of ice-cream.

His eyes actually bulged a little, and when he took another spoonful, it was with the experimental air of someone who can't quite believe he didn't make it up the first time. "Holy shit," he said after a moment, and held the bowl out to Roland. "Ro'. Ro', you have to try this. It's so sweet." Which was the rather more coherent version of the clamouring sweetsweetsweet echoing around his skull. He'd never tasted anything with that kind of sweetness to it.
askthelookout: (Lonesome inside)

[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-03-13 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
Both Bert and Roland had abandoned the ice cream for the moment, although the latter was no less fascinated by its sweetness. This was more important, and for the time being, the wonders of another world could wait.

"I took command over Gilead after you left," Bert said after a moment, glancing between Roland and Nariko. "I wasn't the best at it. But we got some semblance of a wall up, and charges laid in the lower town where we figured they would pass. Women, children, the sick and elderly... we sent them down into the crypts, and I gave Jared a map I made up as best I could. There's a way out down under there, if they could find it. So far as I saw it, our job was to win them time." Wetting his lips, he took another spoonful of ice cream, as if its sweetness could damp out the bitterness of what he was saying. "Farson came from the west. We had no reports of his troops to the south or east. I gave our civilians instructions to move by night and at the fastest pace they could, and set them up with the last of our supplies." His eyes were on Roland alone now, partly because it was Roland he was really reporting to, and partly out of a barely-veiled need to be told he'd done the right thing. All he got was a barely-perceptible nod, but that was enough.

He took a deep breath. "We set up a front line. Everyone with a weapon to carry, gunslingers on the high wall. We were in pretty poor shape after Claude. I had a broken leg and ribs, and I wasn't the worst off. Jared had to go down to the crypts, because his fingers were smashed up so bad the poor bastard could hardly hold a gun." He grimaced, and closed his eyes for a moment. "Jamie took a shell to the head about five minutes after the first volley. Died quick, if not clean. I took a bolt in the belly, that's when Kaine did... whatever she did. Only it didn't look like it was lasting, and I didn't want to watch her die out there fighting someone else's war." Opening his eyes, he looked between Nariko and Roland as if daring either of them to comment. He knew it had been stupid, that look said; knew, and didn't give a flying fuck about it. "Apparently Al didn't mean to come with us. He said he wanted someone to give you a report. I think he was just too chickenshit to deal with being the last one left. Either way, he sent us out here, and I guess he got pulled along. Serves him right. Trying to hog all the fun."
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[personal profile] toweredingly 2015-03-18 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
"Outside it, but not unaffected by it." Roland seemed almost to be thinking out loud, looking rather distant as he wrapped his arm around Nariko's shoulders. "Something wanted them alive, that's for sure. And I can't say I'm less than grateful for it." He looked at Cuthbert, who, having finished his report, was to all appearances busying himself entirely with eating. For a moment, something in Roland's eyes was sadder than before, a strange kind of darkening. Then it passed, as soon as it had come. "It's more than we'd ever hoped to salvage. I don't suppose there's any chance that enough survived to go on fighting?"

"If they..." Bert started, around a mouthful of ice cream, then stopped to swallow, cleared his throat, and tried again. "If they did, they won't be easy to gather up. It's going to be like trying to gather up pieces of wood broken on an anvil. The civilians won't be brought to fight, nor should they be. The gunslingers came out there to die." He said it with a brittle equanimity, even a slight smile, which only made it more obvious how hollow the look in his eyes was. "The war's over. We lost."

"We knew it was coming." Roland nodded, just a little, and reached out his free hand. To his immense relief, Cuthbert took it, and held tight for a moment before letting go. It was something, at least, bridging the gap between them. "We're still alive. We still have work to do." Sitting back on his heels, he looked at Nariko. "Starting, I'd guess, with figuring out what Alain's gotten himself into."
askthelookout: (I'm making this very simple)

[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-03-19 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
"So, what, we wait until it does make him ill or drive him crazy before we do anything about it?" Bert pulled a face, finishing off his ice cream and wiping a smudge of it off the hair on his upper lip. "Great. Because gods know I didn't get my fill of watching magic destroy people just yet." Glancing around briefly, he lowered his voice a little. "Speaking of magics that destroy people, Nariko, is there any chance at all that bedamned thing's still where you put it? Or will they have found it?"

Roland glared at him, but Bert barely flinched. "Look, Ro', someone had to ask. I'm no keener to see it in Marten's hands than you."
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-03-19 03:40 am (UTC)(link)
"If she can't speak, she can damned well sign," Cuthbert opined, sighing and kicking his feet up onto a nearby rock. "Or write. Seems like you've no shortage of paper around here."

"You haven't even seen the library yet," Roland remarked, with a certain dryness. "I think Vannay would've creamed himself." Pushing himself to his feet, he looked after Nariko with some concern. "Alain will be fine, Bert. He's stronger than either of us. You kennit as well as I do."

"I'd say you meant more thick-headed, only I doubt there's a man in any world this side of the Tower with a thicker head than you," Bert grumbled. "Go look to your wife, if all you've got to say is shit I already know."
askthelookout: (Well what can I say)

[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-03-19 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
"Aye." Bert half-smiled, rather wryly, and pushed himself to his feet. "Good luck taming the dragon, Ro'."

"Shut up," Roland retorted, and for a moment, that youthful ease was between them again, as if they'd forgotten the mess they were in the middle of. Bert smiled, a real true smile, and punched his friend in the arm.

"Never have, and never will," he said cheerily, but the falsity of it was already starting to gather again. Letting his hand drop back to his side, he moved back to help Kaine clear up their trash, and didn't look up until Roland was gone, loping off after Nariko.

After a moment more, he straightened up. "So. Library?"
askthelookout: (A dangerous smile)

How do we wanna do this? New thread? Split threads?

[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-03-19 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Cuthbert had been sauntering along behind her, but, like Roland had before him, he stopped dead when he saw the library. After a moment, he let out a low whistle. "He wasn't joking," he said, looking up at the high shelves. "Forget creaming himself, if Vannay were here to see this, I think he'd have given himself a heart attack out of sheer excitement." Laughing, a low little sound in his throat, he tucked his thumbs into his pockets and swung his weight back onto his heels. "I mean, I saw your books back at the house. You're telling me this is normal here?"

It made a lot of sense, actually. The trash they'd just thrown away would have been valuable enough in Mid-World that he'd had to restrain himself from asking her what the hell she was doing to throw it away. This was a different place. Different customs, different resources.

But to see it so openly and so clearly different was still like a punch in the gut. He remembered the great library of Gilead, which besides this looked like a children's schoolroom, and there was a harsh pang of homesickness to ameliorate his wonder.

Shaking it off, he looked at her with a crooked little smile. "Maybe it makes sense how remarkable you are, coming from a place this remarkable itself."
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[personal profile] askthelookout 2015-03-20 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
"Aye." He was still smiling, but it was a little sharper. "You have to salvage what you can, in this world and any other." But that was more serious than he was willing to go, so he shook it off, pulling a comical face. "'Course, there's also the bonus that if you rescue books, you've got an easy source of fuel if it all goes to shit. Am I going with you to talk to whatshername? Because this is all well and good, but I don't think I can read aught from this world, so there's better places to leave me, say true."

Her blush hadn't gone unnoticed. Nor had the fact that he thought she was joking, which he hadn't been. Overplaying it, perhaps - it was the only way he knew how to flirt, that almost-mocking suavity - but he had meant it. He almost told her so. But she wouldn't have believed him, and he'd had his fill of trying to figure such things out for now. They'd made it back to friendship. For now, he was more than happy to let it settle there.

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boom. split thread for ya. :3

[personal profile] toweredingly 2015-03-20 12:52 am (UTC)(link)
Roland hesitated, just for a moment, before following her. Even then, he stood at the mouth of the alleyway, hands in his pockets, scuffing his boot and looking far younger than he usually did.

It was a moment before he cleared his throat. Another moment before he actually found the words to go with it. "You'll forgive me being concerned."
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Whoo!

[personal profile] gunslingerqueen 2015-03-20 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
She tensed at the sound of his voice because, like an idiot, she thought it might have been someone else. Someone that needed to be shot. Nariko wiped at her eyes but when she turned around there was no hiding the wet of her eyes or the stains on her cheeks. At least he didn't have to be so alone in it, crying always made her look her age, too. It was horrible.

"What did you think I was going to do?" There was no irritation or implication in her words, rather a morose resignation, as if it was utterly horrible to have made Roland, of all people, feel concern.
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[personal profile] toweredingly 2015-03-20 05:20 am (UTC)(link)
"I hadn't thought that far," he said, quite frankly, and took a couple of steps towards her, holding out one hand as if she were a frightened animal. His eyes met hers, holding them, and he raised one eyebrow. He could have said some of the things that felt like they were needed: talk to me, let me hold you, don't leave me alone. But words had never been his strong suit. If she couldn't read it in his face and his manner, then it was probably because she wasn't in a place to, and telling her would do no good either.

Or something.
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[personal profile] gunslingerqueen 2015-03-20 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
Hadn't thought that far. That was exactly like him and of all things it set a pitiful, but genuinely grateful smile on her face. It wobbled at the edges as more tears threatened her, but it was better than nothing, right? Even though it required a half seconds hesitation on her part Nariko took his hand, a little weakly at first, as if she suddenly wasn't sure about this contact despite how often they had gone beyond mere handholding. But in true fashion that went away too and she didn't just hold onto Roland, she half-crashed right into all of that ridiculous height and strength. This was almost humiliating, to finally let him see her breaking down at the roots, but the idea of anything else, and the realization that, yes, she had left him to just Kaine and Bert made any other response impossible.

"This is all stupid! Kaine's terrified and Bert hates everything and I want to punch him in the face as much as I want to hold him and I can't do either because I'm the reason you weren't there! We weren't there! And I don't know how to help you either and that's the worst part of it!" Here she actually managed to sniffle, not that it matched her angry-sad tirade in the least. "Actually, no, the worst of it is knowing that I'm the single worst heir apparent in a line of twenty-eight others who are all rolling in their damn graves! My family is as good as dead because of me and a third of the one I've got here can't stand me! Fuck Farson and fuck wars and fuck everything that decided that everyone had to run instead of stay in their homes! Well and truly drive rusty, diseased nails up their veins and make them fucking suffer for every instant they are alive because even then it won't come near to how utterly horrible I feel and how badly I want to just shoot something and I can't!"

The more she spoke the more thoroughly her fingers clenched at the back of his clothing, borrowed or otherwise. Her tone bounced wildly between unbearable sorrow and thriving anger, and sometimes both versions came together so well that, much like her own feelings, there was no telling which made her cry or which made her shake even as she held onto him.

"And now I look stupid because I hate crying. I fucking loathe crying! I'm supposed to be helping everyone not blubbering like a goddamn idiot and I'm sort of freaked out about Chris, okay?" Those issues didn't go together at all but by now her brain was dumping out everything that needed to go. But it was apparently done for the time being because she took her head from his chest long enough to wipe her eyes, but then went right back to almost hiding herself. Ka help this man if he thought that he needed to do anything but stay right where he was. But speaking of that: "And if you tell me this is all some grand plan I'll dropkick you right here! It might be true but the grand plan is horrible and fucked up!" So just, y'know, pet her hair.

Or something.

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