"The living, for one thing. They're the ones that have to deal with the repercussions."
Alain had said that if Bert were to hit her than she would have to hit back. He thought that she wasn't afraid of him or Bert in any way but that was the farthest thing from the truth. Sure, Roland scared her in his own way but the only one who terrified her right down to her bones, in a way that had given her strange dreams and nightmares since the moment she kissed him was one Cuthbert Allgood. No one else. Roland and Alain could attempt to kill her and do it without a single thought but Bert could absolutely destroy her beyond the shadow of a doubt.
Even knowing that, she pressed. Maybe not with any subtlety or tact, but she did. "But not Roland and Nariko, right? Because they weren't there. Roland wasn't there for you, not for Jamie, either. The person I might as well have helped to kill. You said it yourself. Maybe Lookout would only tell you that you should have just let me die. Win your war. Roland would come back and you'd have been a better dinh than him, somehow."
Just the right button pushed, the right nerve and all that control would just tumble right out of him and Kaine would deal with what was left over. Since he wouldn't let anything else happen he hadn't left many options.
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Alain had said that if Bert were to hit her than she would have to hit back. He thought that she wasn't afraid of him or Bert in any way but that was the farthest thing from the truth. Sure, Roland scared her in his own way but the only one who terrified her right down to her bones, in a way that had given her strange dreams and nightmares since the moment she kissed him was one Cuthbert Allgood. No one else. Roland and Alain could attempt to kill her and do it without a single thought but Bert could absolutely destroy her beyond the shadow of a doubt.
Even knowing that, she pressed. Maybe not with any subtlety or tact, but she did. "But not Roland and Nariko, right? Because they weren't there. Roland wasn't there for you, not for Jamie, either. The person I might as well have helped to kill. You said it yourself. Maybe Lookout would only tell you that you should have just let me die. Win your war. Roland would come back and you'd have been a better dinh than him, somehow."
Just the right button pushed, the right nerve and all that control would just tumble right out of him and Kaine would deal with what was left over. Since he wouldn't let anything else happen he hadn't left many options.